成绩出了，这一次我考到不理想。我第一次考到酱的成绩，心情实在是很难平复。虽然我朋友不断的估鼓励我，很努力的逗我开心，但我的眼泪还是不由自主的滑落。她应该很错愕吧，第一次看到我酱。回到家，找了个机会告诉了妈妈，可是她第一句话竟然不是安慰我，之后也没有一句安慰的话，我更加难过，哭得更厉害。老实说，我撑的很辛苦。有时在想，不如死了一了百了，但我知道我不可以酱自私。可是每次回到家，每次我跟你们讲我的问题，你们不是不回答我，就是跟我讲不要相信朋友，答非所问。我很想回答你，既然你们都帮不了我，我不相信朋友我还能相信谁。久而久之，我也很少提起我的事情了，有时你们问到，我也是随便的回答几句。我在想，我到底还能撑多久？我还要撑多久？也许也不是很久吧！但我知道，今晚我一定会留着泪入眠。

Sabah Trip

Went to Sabah to enjoy my holiday. 1st time flight,feel something different. The feeling of take off and landing of the flight are awesome and I like that feeling(my roommate say I'm a weirdo). Looking out from the window of the airplane,I saw many cloud and I feel so good about it. However, the seat of the airplane are a bit narrow and too 90 degree. This make my backbone a bit pain while sitting for 3 hours flight. After the 3 hours flight, we still have to take 2 hours drive to reach my roommate's hometown(Lahad Datu). The place is different from KL. We only can see the oil palm during the journey. After the 2 hours drive, finally reached my roommate's house. Her house got few dogs and puppies. The puppies were so cute.Then I met my roommate mom and her mom was a friendly and like to smile person. We are so tired and we take a rest. At Sabah, 6pm the sky already start turn to dark and 6am the sky will bright. Then we have a special love dinner cooked by roommate's mom. After that watch TV together with her mom and slept. Once I took my dinner my roommate told me later still got supper and they got tea time at evening. Omg! one day have 5 meal. I really can't 'handle' it. During the few day we staying there also doing the same thing - watching TV, going out with friends and having lunch and dinner. But the most thing that I did is sleeping. One of the special food that I had ate is the steam snail and also fried pan mee with my roommate and her friends. I like that steam snail dish. At Sabah, there have different types of 'kon lo mee' but most of the 'kon lo mee' is white in colour and serve with chicken or sliced ​​pork(they call 'shang yok'). During the trip, we just eat and sleep. I also make few new friends and gain a lot of knowledge throughout this trip. Happy ending! Here is some of the photo~ :)

I NEED YOU

Crying alone is the only way that I can release my sadness. No one there with me. What I have is only my pillow with me. Not everyone will trying to listen what you want to say. By the way, when you're sharing, you will share with person that you trust the most. However I will feel making trouble to that person since everyone are busying with their own business. I don't want everything become more worse than now. I need to study for my final exam. I really hope it wouldn't affect my concentration on my studies. Beside praying and studying, I don't what I still can do now. I feel I'm useless!

Outing

Early in the morning, I'm not yet wake up from my bed, my friend already message me said want to go BookFest at KLCC Convention Centre. After got her message, I start prepared myself and we started our journey. When we reached KLCC Convention Centre, we saw many people there. Really can use people mountain people sea to describe that situation. To buy the tickets, you also need to line up with a long queue, luckily there got another ticket counter at level 3. I saw many nice books that I want to buy but those books are quite expensive.:( And the problem when you want to make payment is you need to line up with a long queue! >.< Even though like that, I also bought some stationary and book. :) After the bookfest, my friends suddenly say want to go sing K at Kota Damansara. Then we straight away go there from KL and we made appointment on the way go to that place. Luckily before we went there, we already make appointment because if not we have to stay there and wait for half an hour only got room for us! :) Then we all started shouting at the K-room like nobody can hear our voice at outside! :PP The cost after shouting is we all lost our voice! >.< But really enjoy that moment because we have long time didn't did those funny things! =D Last, we went to the last station which is eating dessert at Sweet Hut. But my friend very unlucky because she ordered a lousy food. This is due to the waitress didn't describe properly. >.< After that, we all go back home.:) The journey ended up with happy and tired but really enjoy it! :D

Change

"Changed mean changed. No matter how, it won't turn back to the original." This statement is true. When there is a positive changed, people will stay together longer. When there is a negative changed, people will decide to leave. They will find out the place that make them feel comfortable.

My Feeling

Sometime people like to use smile to cover their sadness. Yes, I am. This is because not every time at that moment I want to released out. So I'll just pretend and console myself that everything will be alright. Everything will hide in the heart but of cause at that moment my face is damn black. But after that, I'm still like the normal me. Until one day, all the feeling are burst out but normally no one can see this 'process' unless there is an exception. That moment I just feel wanted to cry and cry only(or you have your own style). But after that moment, I'll feel like I'm let down all the unhappy feeling inside my heart and feel relaxed. At that time, I'll feel everything are alright. No big deal at all. I'm still myself and smile again~ :)

-只想让你知道-

最近的我不知怎么了，胃口变小了。以前一碗食物可以吃到完，但最近吃一半就饱了。而且心情也跟着变了，以前的我还蛮多话讲，但最近的我却时常沉默寡言。这也委屈了我的好姐妹。对不起我的好姐妹，我不是故意要沉默，让你们不开心。只是我自己也不懂为什么我会这样。我并不是在生气或闹脾气。我也知道最近你们有的在烦感情问题；有的是学业问题：有的是忙自己的东西，所以我更不想因为我最近酱的反常行为而影响到我们姐妹的感情。要知道我是一个重感情的人，一旦我认为是值得的，我会放完我全部心思去为那个人做任何东西，所以我比谁都重视我们的友情（对我来说有时候我觉得那已经不是友情那么的简单，而是去到亲情那阶段，我真的把你们当成是姐姐妹妹来看待），所以有时候我甚至会吃醋。最近在网络上看到一个wall post说：“吃醋是因为怕你在乎的人不理你！”。 我倒觉得这是真的，因为我很害怕会失去你们，很怕你们丢下我不管我，然后想一堆有的没的。我很怕两年后的离别，我真的会很很很很舍不得你们。有的时候，我想着想着就哭了或伤心，但又不想让你们知道，所以我选择装成心情不好。我宁愿让你们误解，我也不去解释。因为我怕你们觉得我很幼稚，竟然会因为这样而哭。其实我想让你们知道我是真的很爱你们，但我没有勇气讲出来。我并不是一个善于表达自己的人，很多时候很多事情我情愿收在我的心里面。我知道这会让你们很难受，但我希望你们能体谅我。我很感激认识到你们，也谢谢这些年有你们陪我一起走向成长的道路。我希望我们的感情不会变，一直到永远！永远的爱你们！:)

My Happy Weekend ^_^

老朋友就是老朋友！就算是很久没见面，大家的感情都不会变淡。一见面，就有聊不完的话题。这个weekend很开心可以跟我的老朋友一起过。大家一起shopping，一起唱k，一起吃火锅和一起吃甜品。可是开心的日子过得特别快，转眼间，这两天就酱过了！希望我们下一次见面还是可以话不停的聊，同时我也很期待我们讨论的那个trip，希望我们真的可以plan这个trip然后大家一起去。